Let me kick off this post with a montage to Anchor’s awkward sleeping habits:
Well now that we’ve covered that…
This past weekend was a true test of my sanity - after a visit with an
old high school friend that didn’t end so well and another friendship
experienced a colossal meltdown – it was comparable to a scene from
“Girl, Interrupted” in this noggin of mine – I am hoping for an
uneventful upcoming week.
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| I understand, Angelina. |
Sometimes I wonder how my life went one direction and others a
completely different path.
I wonder what takes someone from scholar student to recovering addict.
I have a tendency to want to fix everything and to carry the weight of
the world on my shoulders. I struggle with “it could have been me” and
“what would be different if I…”. I try to remind myself that
everything happens for a reason but when I look into the empty eyes of
a friend of over 10 years and I see no life, no happiness, no hope –
it’s hard to believe it. If they had only not gone to that one bar,
met that one friend, dated that one person… maybe it would be
different.
Sometimes I feel guilty for the life that I live. Sometimes I feel
like things are too good to be true. How can someone have everything
they could ever want while another struggles just to have one small
reason to smile each day.
I do, and will always, believe that each and every person you meet in
life serves a purpose – each is there for a reason; weather to teach
you, to guide you, or to grow you. While some friendships serve
lifelong purposes, unfortunately others you will outgrow. As in every
relationship, you must be willing to put forth a certain amount of
work. It will always take work. Everything takes work…
every.damn.thing. Some relationships just aren’t worth the work it
takes to maintain them. When you are gaining more stress than
enjoyment from someone, is it really worth it?
Memories remain. Good times do not change. You can still love them for
what they represented in your life, but some relationships are better
left behind and not brought with you to the next chapter in your life.
Will you revisit that chapter? Sure. You’ll skim the pages, laugh at
the funny parts, cry at the sad… and keep on turning.
completely different path.
I wonder what takes someone from scholar student to recovering addict.
I have a tendency to want to fix everything and to carry the weight of
the world on my shoulders. I struggle with “it could have been me” and
“what would be different if I…”. I try to remind myself that
everything happens for a reason but when I look into the empty eyes of
a friend of over 10 years and I see no life, no happiness, no hope –
it’s hard to believe it. If they had only not gone to that one bar,
met that one friend, dated that one person… maybe it would be
different.
Sometimes I feel guilty for the life that I live. Sometimes I feel
like things are too good to be true. How can someone have everything
they could ever want while another struggles just to have one small
reason to smile each day.
I do, and will always, believe that each and every person you meet in
life serves a purpose – each is there for a reason; weather to teach
you, to guide you, or to grow you. While some friendships serve
lifelong purposes, unfortunately others you will outgrow. As in every
relationship, you must be willing to put forth a certain amount of
work. It will always take work. Everything takes work…
every.damn.thing. Some relationships just aren’t worth the work it
takes to maintain them. When you are gaining more stress than
enjoyment from someone, is it really worth it?
Memories remain. Good times do not change. You can still love them for
what they represented in your life, but some relationships are better
left behind and not brought with you to the next chapter in your life.
Will you revisit that chapter? Sure. You’ll skim the pages, laugh at
the funny parts, cry at the sad… and keep on turning.
Well said!
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