Mexico and Ovaries, oh yeah... it gets weird.

Big plans are falling in place at the Beavan home front.

Last night, after extensive research (because there is no other way according to my husband), we found and fell in love with our vacation spot for 2014! (More information can be found here: http://grcaribedeluxe.com/index.asp)





Yes, we know... we JUST went to Mexico in October. Here's the thing about Mexico: I am fairly certain I could live there and never need to see another place in my life because Mexico is made of the things heaven is. This will more than likely be our last trip there for many years and I plan to make the most of it. What better way to do that than with friends! Our friends Melissa and David have committed to coming out with us and in return we have committed to Barbados in 2015. They are so fun and the perfect couple to travel with, we cannot wait... Melissa and I are already trying to make a Pinterest-Inspired-Countdown. Much like the one I did for our wedding:

Nerds? Yes. Awesome? Most definitely.

Now for a slight change of pace: Children.

When you reach a certain age, most, if not all, of your friends are either already parents, start becoming parents or discussing near term plans for children. Last night I had a moment where I looked at Brian and thought "I never want to share him"... sounds selfish, but I am entitled to that as a newlywed or a wife in general. I always imagined myself as a mom, maybe even a year after marriage or less, but the day we said our vows something changed. I suddenly became anxious when asked "so, when are you guys going to have a baby of your own?" or... "what are your family plans for the future?"... I smile, giggle awkwardly, ramble something about 5 year plan, all the while containing the voice in my head that's screaming "NO KIDSSSSS".

I have always said IF I have children, I will only have one. (Commence judgemental stares, snickers, and "only child syndrome" comments - and then shove it). But the closer I get to "should be ready" the more I think I could live forever, just Brian, Anchor, Tundra and I (Yes, the animals come before me and YES they will live forever). I couldn't imagine life feeling fuller than it does in this moment.

Now do not misconstrue - I love kids. I have a list a mile long of children who have my heart already: Joseph, Anthony, Jarred, Peyton, Meredith, Baby TBD, Brynn, Emily, Ava, Rylee, Layla, Preston, Zachary, Emily #2, Emma... these kids, they are awesome. And I have fur babies who consume a large portion of my time, and my heart, who make me laugh and best of all - when they're bad, I can kennel them for an hour... in most states, that is frowned upon doing to your actual human child. Con.

Also - we like to travel, a lot. Planning trips brings my husband and I tons of joy. We want to see the world, not just bits and pieces of it but, the whole ENTIRE DAMN THING. Yes, even Canada.

I recently read this article: http://ideas.time.com/2013/08/01/no-regrets-why-i-dont-have-children/ - this woman states that not having children does not make you selfish, this hit home, I am constantly deterring questions regarding children by saying "we're just too selfish right now", heck I did it in this very blog post earlier. I know I am young, I have time to think this through, but for now I am looking forward to vacations and furnishing our home, dancing in the rain and kissing my husband anytime I want and no one crying and causing me to stop.

Every life has it's own path, it's own direction and it's own finish line. Some wake up and know they want to raise a basketball team, some know they want three girls and name them after their great aunts Sally, Beatrice and Gertrude, and some know they might just never be ready. I, for one, don't know when or if I will ever be ready and this is a message to all of our friends, co-workers, parents, aunts and uncles, grandparents and the lady who rang me up at Target 3 weeks ago and thought it was her business to ask when we would have children - my ovaries, and weather or not I want to expose them to becoming fertilized, is my business... I'll send out a newsletter when they come out of hiding.